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My pain irks me, Sends me flying into my bed. Under the cover of darkness. As I cry myself awake, Unable to sleep. I ask myself.. Why? Why am I such a ***** up? Why do I make mistakes, Knowing my parents will be angry? My tears intensify, My claws take my skin, Leaving ****** marks... I scream in my head, Rocking to the beat of my music, That sings in my ear bud. Evanescence, Rascal Flatts. Plumb. Crossfade. I cannot find peace.. All I feel is that pain. That has ****** me over for, Five years. I'm only a teenager, I only can take so much. Until Its over. I've already tried once... What makes you think I'll try again? Dad, What makes you so ****** Taking it out on me, Because I don't listen? Why can't you and my step mom, Just realize.. That I'm only Seventeen.. And so it says, My title will always stay. Lone wolf forever.. I cant be perfect, It's just not my style. My life is so different, I cry even harder. Mistakes, Promises broken. Two faced liars.. God, Why aren't you here? I need you.. And I need you now.. As my pain intensifies, All I see is the cascading shadows. Watching my every move... My music doesn't help anymore..
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Jul 15, 2014
Jul 15, 2014 at 11:29 PM UTC
Pain that Never Leaves
My pain irks me, Sends me flying into my bed. Under the cover of darkness. As I cry myself awake, Unable to sleep. I ask myself.. Why? Why am I such a ***** up? Why do I make mistakes, Knowing my parents will be angry? My tears intensify, My claws take my skin, Leaving ****** marks... I scream in my head, Rocking to the beat of my music, That sings in my ear bud. Evanescence, Rascal Flatts. Plumb. Crossfade. I cannot find peace.. All I feel is that pain. That has ****** me over for, Five years. I'm only a teenager, I only can take so much. Until Its over. I've already tried once... What makes you think I'll try again? Dad, What makes you so ****** Taking it out on me, Because I don't listen? Why can't you and my step mom, Just realize.. That I'm only Seventeen.. And so it says, My title will always stay. Lone wolf forever.. I cant be perfect, It's just not my style. My life is so different, I cry even harder. Mistakes, Promises broken. Two faced liars.. God, Why aren't you here? I need you.. And I need you now.. As my pain intensifies, All I see is the cascading shadows. Watching my every move... My music doesn't help anymore..
Really ****** day and my parents don't realize that I'm trying to be an adult.. Not a teenager.. I make split second decisions for my well being. Not their own.
#tears#liar#change#scars#fml#mistakes#needyou#godi#screwup
julie-kirby
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Jul 15, 2014
Jul 15, 2014 at 11:29 PM UTC
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