#needyou
Getting used to you every single day and night
Might be this is a lust or love or a only attraction
Every night we interact but can't feel feelings
Only i feel those feelings
This is called love at first sight
Might be you also used to me
And can't show feelings
Take your time
I'm your incomplete puzzle and you are my missing piece
Dec 28, 2019
Dec 28, 2019 at 9:38 AM UTC
A choice i once made
Gave me this feeling
Of discomfort
A feeling that never sat right with me
For some reason this feels
Like a stay or go
Stay with me or be free from me
I hurt
But i know you ache with pain
That should not be there in the first place
Im sorry
And if forgiveness is not an option
Then to be free it must be
For to move forward
We need forgiveness and to move on
To leave it in the past
I promise to you
That I want only you till I die
My mistakes
Are stupid
And i know who i have and how much
You mean to me
So to lose you
Would be too much
That my mistake
Would be the breaking of your heart
And mine
Aug 13, 2019
Aug 13, 2019 at 12:51 PM UTC
I just want to speak to you.
Can I get one moment of your time?
I just need me to see you.
I just need you to see me.
I know sometimes it’s not easy.
I just want this one moment to last.
But I know the images of me.
Brings up the bad moments of your past.
I just want to say sorry.
Although history can repeat.
It usually does..no matter how discreet.
Things can still rise to the surfaces above.
I’m thinking of you too much.
And the mistakes that were made.
But I’m also missing your touch.
Almost by days: like yesterday and today.
Tomorrow could be a different story.
But I still think about you always.
I won’t go into details.
But I shouldn’t raise my _______.
I feel sorry where it landed.
It should of firmly planted.
If it was me instead of you.
I would of never withstand it.
So, now I understand it...Why.
You left me without a goodbye.
Then again you just left.
Without a single text.
I started with a Hello...
I got silence in return
I guess your wondering what’s next..
I guess your still feeling hurt..
I’m Sorry (it’s not just words)
I’m Sorry (I really mean it when your hurt)
I’m Sorry (I should thought of my action first)
I’m so so Sorry.
Jul 16, 2019
Jul 16, 2019 at 6:52 AM UTC
The marks you left behind after the bruises faded
A flinch at a hesitant touch
Afraid to be alone with someone
Afraid to be touched in a hug
It isn't on purpose
I swear
I just panic at touches even by family
From what you left when the bruises had healed over
May 25, 2019
May 25, 2019 at 1:10 AM UTC
You’ve awoken my heart
So wake up please
I’m getting sleepy
My lucid dreams smother and inject terror into my heart
They terrify me
Wake up please
I cannot fall asleep
Dec 2, 2018
Dec 2, 2018 at 11:04 AM UTC
Headache of a girl
stepping on sobbing floorboards,
rusty pipes and lonely nights.
I start my own fires,
tend to sweat out kerosene.
Rinse myself with ***** water
dripping from cracks above.
Break open a window-
smoggy air love, right hand slug.
You’re still sound asleep,
yet I stand in the city
interrupted by sirens
and memories of you.
What a pity.
Nov 28, 2018
Nov 28, 2018 at 10:21 PM UTC
What is pain
There is physical pain
The kind you feel when you fall
Or you crash your bike
Pain from being pushed
Pain from being hurt
There is mental pain
The kind from bullying
Or being forced to do something
Pain from being pushed
Pain from being hurt
"Are you okay?"
They ask
"Yes"
I say
While thinking no
Help me...hurt me...
Three letter difference
We are raised different
From each other
Yet we try to be each other
Who am I
I can't tell
I'm whoever you want me to be
I thought
You liked those kinds of girls
I was wrong
You like me
A sweet shy girl
You like me but you don't know me
And I don't know you
Thats why you didnt know
Why I couldn't say no
I didn't want it
I'm so sorry if I said I did
I wasn't ready
I want you now
I could take it now
I'm ready now
But I wasn't then
I'm sorry
If I lied
If I hurt you
Physically or mentally
Whats the difference
It's all pain
Sometimes one is so strong it's the other
I hurt you
You hurt me
Can we fix it
Can I fix it
Love me
I love you
You say you're happy
Happy you aren't hurting me more
I need to know why
Weren't we perfect
You were happy
I wasn't, but you were
Thats all that matters to me
Both of us happy
Thats new
We're new
How is life fair
To make both of us happy
Why must we hurt to get there
Hurt
Pain
Pain is everywhere
In everything
We are all in pain
Some more than others
It doesn't matter what kind of pain
Help
Help
Help
Happy
Happy
Happy
We will be happy
I will no longer be
In pain
--StoryMakerInProgress
May 22, 2018
May 22, 2018 at 1:46 PM UTC
I need you in the moment
when I tell my friends I want to die
and they don’t even care
let alone even notice that I’m there
I need you in the moment
when I cry in the middle of the night
and I don’t remember why
let alone why it hurts so much
I need you in the moment
when I take the little courage that I have
and stand up, only for them to dismiss me
let alone change
I need you in the moment
when I show my cuts on display to the world
and the only thing anyone gives is judgement
let alone SAVE ME
I need you in the moment
when everyone else survives
and leaves you to rot in the darkness
let alone comfort me
I need you in the moment
when I realize I’m manipulative
and that this is all my fault
because I’m the problem
in my life
that sabotages my every move
and needs to LEAVE
Because I need you
in that moment
that you’re not there
because you were never anywhere
Let alone here
Feb 26, 2018
Feb 26, 2018 at 12:02 AM UTC
Now, just now I know that I'm lonely because you're away from me
You, about you, about me is about you and I'll repeat the same verses over and over and over again until you're back to me
'Love' is the word I really need so all of these affections need a place where to go
'Love' is the word I really need so please will you come back and kiss on my cheek.
Please, stay by my side.
Jul 26, 2017
Jul 26, 2017 at 1:18 PM UTC
I would trade my future for one last minute with you,
Cut into my memories and give the best slice to you,
Dance in the street wearing only my flaws for you,
Buy the finest brushes to paint my thoughts for you.
imissyouandiloveyouandineedyou
But life isn't fair, and my ****** job can only buy so many plane rides a year to see you.
And all of the love in the world from me can't generate love from you.
If I wrapped up the galaxy in a fancy box with a bow, it wouldn't mean a thing to you.
I could hide myself in my broken pieces, but I would have to send a map to you.
imissyouandiloveyouandineedyou
Jun 30, 2015
Jun 30, 2015 at 11:48 AM UTC
The idea of losing you tastes so bitter
I'm choking on it
Dec 13, 2014
Dec 13, 2014 at 2:46 AM UTC
I am sorry
that I am rather obnoxious,
very unwanted,
and crazy needy.
I just always
seem to feel a bit better when
you take the time to
simply talk to me.
Dec 4, 2014
Dec 4, 2014 at 8:17 PM UTC
This is going to be
*one of those nights *I hopelessly
wait**
up for you only to be
disappointed again, isn't it?
Dec 3, 2014
Dec 3, 2014 at 10:27 PM UTC
it made my heart hurt, those words. It's a wednesday, it's 11:47pm and i'm still thinking about you. i'm thinking about you the same way i thought about you at 11:47pm and 11:57pm the night you first kissed me.
"when you have a connection with someone, it never really goes away, ya know? You snap back to being important to each other because you still are."
well you are. you're still so ******* important. and i'm sorry, i'm so ******* sorry. You're not like anyone else i've ever met, you make ****** weather seem happy. About 5 months ago every time it'd rain you'd pick me up and take my to drive in the rain. I don't know if you knew i loved the rain, or knew i loved your company. either way, it was the best few weeks of my life. but look it's exactly 23 weeks later and you're all i can think about when i'm in the loneliest place i've ever been.
please i miss you
It was August 31st at 3:05pm.. it was your moms birthday. I remember how hard my heart starting beating then.
I wrote a note two weeks before i left for college, i wrote to myself about how i could be falling for someone who hated me. I know you don't hate me, but i feel like you could. The thought of losing you makes me exhausted, exhausted trying to keep you around.
When I was 7 years old i had a teacher who told me the world will repay me someday for being so full of sunshine. That was my first thought when you held my hand for the first time, because you make my cheeks hurt with how much you make me smile. I didn't know if i wanted you to kiss me, until it did. When it did, i knew i didn't want it to stop. I've never wanted someone to press their palms up against my ribcage more than you, or kiss my neck and make me lose my breathe. I want to give you everything i love but i'm scared that when i do, it won't be the same. The innocence that I have with you is unlike anything, you're the first person who didn't need to take my shirt off to see my heart.. thank you so much. This is a ****** story, coming from a ****** person who can't get over her ****** feelings for you. But i decided on you, don't you get that? i decided on you. i don't want to go ******* other people and then walk around feeling thrilled and then sad , or empty, or whatever. I like the taste of your lips, and i like the sound of your voice, and i ******* decided on you. you were the first person to make me feel like i didn't need to be perfect, it's been 5 ******* months and i still can't get you out of my ******* head.
you still are, you still are important
so i realized... i have bad news & i have good news, turns out both of them are that i love you.
-d.g. (And i'm sorry that you can't trust me to love you, but i would and i do. But i'm still sorry.)
Oct 9, 2014
Oct 9, 2014 at 12:35 AM UTC
Thinking of you
Getting anxious
Needing you
*Lather
Rinse
Repeat*
Sep 30, 2014
Sep 30, 2014 at 12:02 AM UTC