he smells strongly of cedar
doped lightly with american spirits
i'm determined to break my heart
again and again
keep loving & keep moving on
simultaneously
i keep doing this
maybe i am a romantic after all
led zeppelin - ten years gone
playing in the car
guitars pulling me in
smoke and cedar
i want to reach out and hold him
wrap my arms around from behind
i miss his heavy hand on my back
guilty of backseat daydreaming
guilty of secret plans
to get near and far
to test proximity
nothing changes but the shape
of this melancholia
witches rave
hate this and i'll love you
comfortably numb
- i want my head on his chest
angry at myself
the night i dreamt, it was just this:
someone pointed out that he looked really handsome that day
i said "/Thank you/" because i'd been dying for someone to say it, to point it out,
because i'd spent the whole entire day thinking about it
he's so handsome today
more than the sweet man i trust
handsome like a stranger
like a crush
i'm going to bed tonight
with a hand gripping my heart
with such strength it may implode
a crush
a delusion?
a fleeting fondness?
my beloved friend
who made such wonderful things possible for me
who treated me with the love and kindness that he shows to all those dear
no special treatment
but i'm struck
i'm struck
we're almost home
his right hand on the wheel, the other fidgeting with a lock of his hair
the dark curls that i cut for him months ago, they're growing out now
i'm scared to get out of this car
and say goodnight
souvlaki space station shifts and tings and fades
cool night air, release this grip on my heart
remember that he feels nothing
just be grateful for the friendship
and give back the care
Mar 20
Mar 20, 2026 at 12:23 AM UTC
he smells strongly of cedar
doped lightly with american spirits
i'm determined to break my heart
again and again
keep loving & keep moving on
simultaneously
i keep doing this
maybe i am a romantic after all
led zeppelin - ten years gone
playing in the car
guitars pulling me in
smoke and cedar
i want to reach out and hold him
wrap my arms around from behind
i miss his heavy hand on my back
guilty of backseat daydreaming
guilty of secret plans
to get near and far
to test proximity
nothing changes but the shape
of this melancholia
witches rave
hate this and i'll love you
comfortably numb
- i want my head on his chest
angry at myself
the night i dreamt, it was just this:
someone pointed out that he looked really handsome that day
i said "/Thank you/" because i'd been dying for someone to say it, to point it out,
because i'd spent the whole entire day thinking about it
he's so handsome today
more than the sweet man i trust
handsome like a stranger
like a crush
i'm going to bed tonight
with a hand gripping my heart
with such strength it may implode
a crush
a delusion?
a fleeting fondness?
my beloved friend
who made such wonderful things possible for me
who treated me with the love and kindness that he shows to all those dear
no special treatment
but i'm struck
i'm struck
we're almost home
his right hand on the wheel, the other fidgeting with a lock of his hair
the dark curls that i cut for him months ago, they're growing out now
i'm scared to get out of this car
and say goodnight
souvlaki space station shifts and tings and fades
cool night air, release this grip on my heart
remember that he feels nothing
just be grateful for the friendship
and give back the care
feelings old & new while driving back from a roadtrip to maine with my long-time friend & short-time ex-fling . !
