he smells strongly of cedar
doped lightly with american spirits
i'm determined to break my heart
again and again
keep loving & keep moving on
simultaneously
i keep doing this
maybe i am a romantic after all
led zeppelin - ten years gone
playing in the car
guitars pulling me in
smoke and cedar
i want to reach out and hold him
wrap my arms around from behind
i miss his heavy hand on my back
guilty of backseat daydreaming
guilty of secret plans
to get near and far
to test proximity
nothing changes but the shape
of this melancholia
witches rave
hate this and i'll love you
comfortably numb
- i want my head on his chest
angry at myself
the night i dreamt, it was just this:
someone pointed out that he looked really handsome that day
i said "/Thank you/" because i'd been dying for someone to say it, to point it out,
because i'd spent the whole entire day thinking about it
he's so handsome today
more than the sweet man i trust
handsome like a stranger
like a crush
i'm going to bed tonight
with a hand gripping my heart
with such strength it may implode
a crush
a delusion?
a fleeting fondness?
my beloved friend
who made such wonderful things possible for me
who treated me with the love and kindness that he shows to all those dear
no special treatment
but i'm struck
i'm struck
we're almost home
his right hand on the wheel, the other fidgeting with a lock of his hair
the dark curls that i cut for him months ago, they're growing out now
i'm scared to get out of this car
and say goodnight
souvlaki space station shifts and tings and fades
cool night air, release this grip on my heart
remember that he feels nothing
just be grateful for the friendship
and give back the care
Mar 20
Mar 20, 2026 at 12:23 AM UTC
i see the moon
i grab your hand
i hear the night
as we descend
Feb 28, 2025
Feb 28, 2025 at 9:43 AM UTC
I am that feeling
you’ve been searching for
I eat your dark, you taste my soul
pulled my heart from the ice
now I feel the cold
Feb 15, 2025
Feb 15, 2025 at 10:40 PM UTC
i can smell the beginning of time
i feast on its flavor and in my belly
there's a suicidal undercurrent
this is love-hunger gnawing at a touch
at flickers of touch
i'm feeling my age
Jan 29, 2025
Jan 29, 2025 at 8:47 PM UTC
my darkness, i'm with you even now
i hear your call like my own echo
i've felt you before
i'm empty for you
Jan 17, 2025
Jan 17, 2025 at 1:39 AM UTC
there goes a bit of my life spent on you
and my heart
my chest is squeezed like an orange beneath my ribcage
my esophagus is crying
or that's how i feel
please dont take this from me
the little lighthouse youve built in my sea
Jan 17, 2025
Jan 17, 2025 at 1:38 AM UTC
deep, quiet and soft
he puts my soul to sleep
like the sun, as it dips over the hill
and my heart, like the moon, it rises
contained, timid, calm
this brittle branch
a twig beneath my foot
his fragile, pressured posture
he seems a birdlike thing until he
sparks- snaps
across the room
lightning on a hot summer day
unexpected, and
explosive, and
beautiful,
that bright, electric beam
Apr 30, 2024
Apr 30, 2024 at 9:18 PM UTC
we are on the spaceship
we are in the battle
no one's getting out
or escaping this fight
Feb 25, 2024
Feb 25, 2024 at 8:22 PM UTC
that we are empty space,
I feel this the most
just the empty
just the space
Feb 17, 2024
Feb 17, 2024 at 3:36 PM UTC