#limerance
Yesterday, it was spring;
Warm and full of life -
That was the day you kissed me.
Today, snow has fallen;
The winter wind blows -
This is the day you left me.
Apr 5
Apr 5, 2026 at 2:12 AM UTC
he smells strongly of cedar
doped lightly with american spirits
i'm determined to break my heart
again and again
keep loving & keep moving on
simultaneously
i keep doing this
maybe i am a romantic after all
led zeppelin - ten years gone
playing in the car
guitars pulling me in
smoke and cedar
i want to reach out and hold him
wrap my arms around from behind
i miss his heavy hand on my back
guilty of backseat daydreaming
guilty of secret plans
to get near and far
to test proximity
nothing changes but the shape
of this melancholia
witches rave
hate this and i'll love you
comfortably numb
- i want my head on his chest
angry at myself
the night i dreamt, it was just this:
someone pointed out that he looked really handsome that day
i said "/Thank you/" because i'd been dying for someone to say it, to point it out,
because i'd spent the whole entire day thinking about it
he's so handsome today
more than the sweet man i trust
handsome like a stranger
like a crush
i'm going to bed tonight
with a hand gripping my heart
with such strength it may implode
a crush
a delusion?
a fleeting fondness?
my beloved friend
who made such wonderful things possible for me
who treated me with the love and kindness that he shows to all those dear
no special treatment
but i'm struck
i'm struck
we're almost home
his right hand on the wheel, the other fidgeting with a lock of his hair
the dark curls that i cut for him months ago, they're growing out now
i'm scared to get out of this car
and say goodnight
souvlaki space station shifts and tings and fades
cool night air, release this grip on my heart
remember that he feels nothing
just be grateful for the friendship
and give back the care
Mar 20
Mar 20, 2026 at 12:23 AM UTC
Limerance
like winter's splinters
leaves skin wincing,
timber limbs frostbitten
tinsel shimmers
but the heat still lingers,
smoulders tinder;
what was once
stronger than a whimper,
twin flames dwindled
to burning cinders
now hinders, injures.
Mar 5, 2025
Mar 5, 2025 at 2:10 PM UTC
don't touch me
I'll take your name and tie the ribbon around my eyes
don't call me
I'll make your hands the collar around my neck
take heed and
give me nothing
for I will make you my everything
May 9, 2021
May 9, 2021 at 12:20 PM UTC
Head heavy
Chest empty
Brain swimming endlessly
Stomach churning
Throat burning
This broken heart is destiny
Spiraled thoughts
My mind is taut
The OCD attacks fully
These stupid lies
Waste so much time
As if you'd ever think of me
Oct 28, 2023
Oct 28, 2023 at 1:38 AM UTC
We agreed
lets take some space
to breathe
But I can't breathe
So now what?
Apr 28, 2017
Apr 28, 2017 at 7:04 AM UTC
Next to your pyre
Nest to your flame
I am ashamed by my mortality
these days have made ash accumulating of me
the grown-up ghost I'm taken to be
a soundless sonder
Through another man's lens
through another boy's poem
you are still beautiful to me
Some other man's Eurydice
Some boy who didn't turn around
when faced with the world only a few steps away
Now I am buried under this city
practicing sleepless nights
I talk to you backwards and pray for the world to begin again
a double exposure in third person
the picture makes sense, the pieces don't fit together
My schizophrenia in monochrome
Limerance,
though spurious
pending supplication
Nov 18, 2015
Nov 18, 2015 at 7:03 AM UTC