A second one
You'll never see
Hopefully
Oh, hopefully.
I don't think you hate me
I hope that I'm right
I don't think I could handle
If I'm wrong.
Though it might come as a shock
I don't want you to feel bad
I don't want you to feel sad
The last letter
Was a falsity
Uncirculated
And ultimately
Untrue.
I don't know the truth
I don't know how I feel
I don't know what I feel
I don't know if
I feel
Or
If it's real.
If I could rid you of your guilt
Of your shame
Of my faults
Pressed onto you
By a selfish
Unworthy
Unfathomable individual
I would.
I'm so sorry
Truly
Truly sorry
For how I feel
And how
Even now
I manage to act a victim
As if a scornful act
Was committed against me
And that this letter
You'll never see
Is my final plea.
I know
I know
You don't see me
Or anyone
In that light
And I want you to know
It's alright.
I never wanted this to happen
I never wanted anything
To get to the point
Where I can't help solve
The problems I caused.
I won't worry you anymore.
I won't make you feel guilty.
I can't.
I'll do
Whatever
And all
That it takes
To keep it closed;
Seal the wound of my tears
And cauterize it
So no one has to look
At such an unsightly thing
Ever again.
I don't care if it's unhealthy
I don't care if these are steps backwards
As long as I can stay with you
And be the way we used to
That's all I need.
Oct 7, 2021
Oct 7, 2021 at 2:06 PM UTC
A second one
You'll never see
Hopefully
Oh, hopefully.
I don't think you hate me
I hope that I'm right
I don't think I could handle
If I'm wrong.
Though it might come as a shock
I don't want you to feel bad
I don't want you to feel sad
The last letter
Was a falsity
Uncirculated
And ultimately
Untrue.
I don't know the truth
I don't know how I feel
I don't know what I feel
I don't know if
I feel
Or
If it's real.
If I could rid you of your guilt
Of your shame
Of my faults
Pressed onto you
By a selfish
Unworthy
Unfathomable individual
I would.
I'm so sorry
Truly
Truly sorry
For how I feel
And how
Even now
I manage to act a victim
As if a scornful act
Was committed against me
And that this letter
You'll never see
Is my final plea.
I know
I know
You don't see me
Or anyone
In that light
And I want you to know
It's alright.
I never wanted this to happen
I never wanted anything
To get to the point
Where I can't help solve
The problems I caused.
I won't worry you anymore.
I won't make you feel guilty.
I can't.
I'll do
Whatever
And all
That it takes
To keep it closed;
Seal the wound of my tears
And cauterize it
So no one has to look
At such an unsightly thing
Ever again.
I don't care if it's unhealthy
I don't care if these are steps backwards
As long as I can stay with you
And be the way we used to
That's all I need.