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I starve myself Because the intense growl in my stomach is the only time something tells me it cares about me I take freezing showers that make it hard to breathe Because it's the only time I fight to stay alive I read past conversations of my heart getting broke Because it's the only time I can control when I cry I fake happiness for those around me Because I'd rather hide my pain than my peers to pretend to care I isolate myself from everything Because it's the only time that I am the only one who can hurt me I'm stuck in a depressive paradox; the only way for me to survive my pain is to make my own
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Sep 11, 2019
Sep 11, 2019 at 4:42 AM UTC
Depressive Paradox / Only Time
I starve myself Because the intense growl in my stomach is the only time something tells me it cares about me I take freezing showers that make it hard to breathe Because it's the only time I fight to stay alive I read past conversations of my heart getting broke Because it's the only time I can control when I cry I fake happiness for those around me Because I'd rather hide my pain than my peers to pretend to care I isolate myself from everything Because it's the only time that I am the only one who can hurt me I'm stuck in a depressive paradox; the only way for me to survive my pain is to make my own
Was going go use the term "borborygmus" in the second line, but decided that's too extra.
#depression#paradox#sad#survive#mental#illness#ptsd#selfdestructive#self#destructive
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Sep 11, 2019
Sep 11, 2019 at 4:42 AM UTC
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