I'm choking on oxygen
My palms are sweating too much
My heart is jumping inside my chest
My brain is on a drunken haywire
I'm literally left speechless and dazed
I didn't see this coming
You're standing in front of me
Once again I get a glimpse of you
A glimpse that I would've killed for
In what was like a lifetime ago
You render me helpless
I thought I was done with this
My life was back on track again
My heart healing from the wounds
That your departure inflicted on me
And yet here I am
Time froze again for me
Because as the pain resurfaced in me
You seem like you're having fun
Living life as if nothing happened
And yet you left me in misery
How dare you smile in front of me
Showing me expressions that I've never seen before
Your smile a mockery of the harrowing experience
Of everything I went through because of you
I'm trying not to sob
You look like you own the world
Being happy with someone else nowadays
Yet here I am frozen and dumbstruck
As you blatantly ignore me when our eyes met
Here I go again
Spiraling in a downward depression
Feeling used and abused
When I simply gave my all to you
And you show me how insignificant I am to you
I'm done with this
I'm done with you and your cruel heart
That enjoys the misery of those she left
That craves attention only for self fulfillment
And leaves destruction in your wake
You are a storm
As storm that passed by my life
Who's torrential downpour I craved
But left me destroyed and broken
Leaving me to die out of breath
This is the last goodbye
I never want anything from you
Whose love is too hellish to earn
I never want to go through this again
Even if it leaves me wanting more from you
See what mess you left me in?
Apr 19, 2019
Apr 19, 2019 at 1:51 AM UTC
I'm choking on oxygen
My palms are sweating too much
My heart is jumping inside my chest
My brain is on a drunken haywire
I'm literally left speechless and dazed
I didn't see this coming
You're standing in front of me
Once again I get a glimpse of you
A glimpse that I would've killed for
In what was like a lifetime ago
You render me helpless
I thought I was done with this
My life was back on track again
My heart healing from the wounds
That your departure inflicted on me
And yet here I am
Time froze again for me
Because as the pain resurfaced in me
You seem like you're having fun
Living life as if nothing happened
And yet you left me in misery
How dare you smile in front of me
Showing me expressions that I've never seen before
Your smile a mockery of the harrowing experience
Of everything I went through because of you
I'm trying not to sob
You look like you own the world
Being happy with someone else nowadays
Yet here I am frozen and dumbstruck
As you blatantly ignore me when our eyes met
Here I go again
Spiraling in a downward depression
Feeling used and abused
When I simply gave my all to you
And you show me how insignificant I am to you
I'm done with this
I'm done with you and your cruel heart
That enjoys the misery of those she left
That craves attention only for self fulfillment
And leaves destruction in your wake
You are a storm
As storm that passed by my life
Who's torrential downpour I craved
But left me destroyed and broken
Leaving me to die out of breath
This is the last goodbye
I never want anything from you
Whose love is too hellish to earn
I never want to go through this again
Even if it leaves me wanting more from you
See what mess you left me in?
Outburst of words and emotions
Hi there!
Thanks for reading!
-Mr. J
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