sorry I couldn't be there
for you whenever
you need a lonely hug,
or a (tantalizing) smile giver
at least.

sorry I couldn't be there
for you whenever
you need someone to hold your hands firmly,
for you to nap your head onto someone's shoulder
trying to forget how cruel the world was - the reality.

sorry for I am the subtle lover,
everyone is scared of craving for
everyone is scared of loving for
their entire life (if they ever live one)
but not you, the only survivor.

sorry for I am the apathetic lover,
trying hard with audacity,
trying hard with tenacity,
in the staggering fight uncovering the pitfall of love.

and it was always for you,
it was always for you,
you,
& only for you it was.