we used to jaywalk on the streets and play hide and seek in the rain we would laugh about first kisses in Central Park and mimic people as they walked by and the entire time it was you
I know that I am not beautiful I know that when other people see me they see the girl with the thin-and-very-awkward frame with glasses that always seem to fall I had just somehow convinced myself that you saw more than that
When people ask me about you I like to say that I don't know about you and that it had been awhile since we talked because it had and when they ask me if I'm okay I smile and say of course because I am I should be I'm not
tell me am I now apart of your forgotten club that is shoved to the back of you mind will you tell your new friends about me and will you say that you miss me and will you make it seem inevitable
will you create a blank canvas of loneliness for the next girl to find and try to paint on will you whisper my name to her as if talking about a shadow that shouldn't have existed
sometimes I find myself wondering if you were just some cruel nightmare that my mind had conjured up to torture me but then I remember that my imagination isn't creative nor beautiful enough to create someone like you
and now it rains like hurricanes but when I hide, I don't try to find myself, it's better that way