Deep in my notes
I ponder a closer look
To reality no fidelity
In this fantasy called life
I was made strife
Pain sticking deeper than knife
In my heart try not to part
From good deed but enticed to evil deeds
Cuz pappy planted a corrupt seed
Ignorance and greed feed of one another
I look at my other brothers
They either strung out drugged out
Wined out or blacked out
Two on the third strike ya dead
Visions impaired have ya ever seen
A man scared? Before death glared
Over his shoulder tryna to avoids the crossover
But its over life's gone life goes on
I wouldn't mind a daughter or a son
And I've done did a lot wrong in my time
Lost my baby before it perform and embryo
Soul burning slow tryna hide my tears
Deep within my fears pressure begins to hunt me taunt me
Feel as I'm.a failure momma girl always yellin' at me wish they could see
What misery I was brought upon
Try to be close to the Most High
But subjugated by the Fallen One
Two three death comes in threes
So I promise my grandpappy
Since he's resting in peace
I told him I'll keep the peace and put down the peace
Deep down inside that's my pride
My thoughts frozen but they began to thaw
Raw with the wisdom I saw
We still gone die wither we lose win or draw