at this moment
i realized i am lost
i don’t know where to go
have my paths been crossed?
when i look in the mirror
its not the man i want to see
how can i ever mistake being lost
with me being free?
i thought that i was
free from sorrow and troubles
but truly I’m more and more lost
my soul must look like a pile of rubble
my place in this world
i see as unfit
realizing made me think
is it really all worth it?
i know I’m fighting myself
but all wars have an ending
the answer that i seek
seems like it’ll forever be pending
will i ever be happy
with the man that i see
or will it soon lead to torment
havoc it will certainly reek
i can lay and sulk
or i can go and find my way
but whatever i tell myself
more misery is what i seem to pay
today I realized i am lost
have i made the first step?
or just drawn ever closer
to my unknown frightening death