She sits you across from me on the worn leather armchair
I say we need a break

Your jittering is shaking the entire chair, you bounce your knee, your fingers pretend they are playing an imaginary song on the piano that only you may hear.

You are everything I despise In myself.

I say you’re smothering, I need a life without you breathing down my neck. I’m starving for air, I need serenity and calmness.

you make me not want to wake up some mornings
.
You hate confrontations, I see you’re beginning to look around for an escape or an excuse. Your eyes start to have the glassy, hazy look that I’m highly accustomed to by now

I say I miss my old self, the one that didn’t close everyone off or act like she didn’t have a wall around her at all times. My mind never stops over analyzing conversations and situations. I miss not ending relationships for fear of the pain they could cause me, I miss out on the happiness they could bring me
.
I miss freedom.
You wring your hands and make believe you are zoning off so you don’t have to acknowledge this.
I say I want my mind to be silent, no more stressing over things out of my control. I want to enjoy everyday without having to remind myself to breath in and out. You follow me everywhere, you made me have an attack in the bathroom at school, it’s become too much to bear now.
My mind has resorted to thinking that maybe medicine can help us.

We’ll be together till the day we die you say, you can’t rid of me you can only put me off for another time, I will always come back. I won’t ever leave you like you do to so many people you care about, I’m here for the long run.

You have to learn how to live with me
.
I take a good look at you and see myself.