she had a hard time admitting to herself that she couldn't let you in she always was an open book, there were never any great walls, or giant doors, locked with chains she thought she often thinks of you now like a Trojan horse, slyly slipping past her guards, only to destroy her from within once, albeit too late, she discovers you in fact are the enemy penetrating her fortress she once thought, having you close by, that you were her ally there could be nothing better but smoke and mirrors was all you were a magician, a maker of potions when she'd playfully glance your way through the top of her hazy drunken eyes telling you without words what she was really saying intoxicated uninhibited blackouts she has trouble hanging on to memories without clouds and drink spills disrupting their integrity that she only sees your smile and only hears your whispers in her ear and only feels your gentle, soft caress which cause that tumor of your memory in her brain to shrink, and lead her to think that just one more kiss, just one more night couldn't hurt, could it? just one more chance, and she could explain it all away one more full moon to light the night, to see her but you never cared about the walls, or the locks you were content on the outside, and having her securely trapped in her own locked, doorless room and she knew all along you never wanted in you are the cigarette to her lung cancer the addiction that will **** her that she cannot seem to give up