When the moon forces night I'm knocked down to my knees Memory fading from sight Promises I'll never keep I go and do it again Order round after round Might as well be a gun in my hand Deadly shots with no sound As the snake in the pit Takes a bite out of me I am chewing my lip So much wanting to scream Falling off of the cliff Cause my ledge is to weak Craziness must admit Taking the best out of me Sunlight makes it's first peak Over the waters edge In the gutter I sleep I have made my own bed In which I now lie If only I were able To give up and die On this, my torture table The snake in the pit Will not let go of me I try to shoot from the hip To try and bring some relief I stare at the cliff where I fell The climb is to steep Alcohol has a mighty grip That brings me no peace
I did finally escape the grip alcohol had on me 24 years ago today... If you find yourself in that hell (And HELL it is) I pray you yourself find relief and help. Are you strong enough to do it on your own? Maybe but I doubt it. Check out AA or better yet Celebrate Recovery at a local church.. Believe me it will be one of the best decisions you'll make in life! Escape is possible!