I DON'T GET IT EVERYONE SITS IN THEIR OWN SILENCE DAYDREAMING ABOUT A DIFFERENT DAY WHEN THE HOUSE IS SLOWLY BURNING EVERYTHING IS BECOMING FLAMES NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU TRY TO BUY MY AFFECTION NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU APOLOGIZE IT WON'T MATTER WHEN THEREβS NOTHING LEFT BUT A BURNT DOORWAY AND A DEAD MARRIAGE THE END TO A LONG BOOK FOR THEM THE END TO THE BIGGEST CHAPTER IN MINE HOW DO THEY EXPECT ME TO STAY STILL WAIT PATIENTLY FOR EVERYTHING TO DISINTEGRATE AND TURN INTO NOTHING WITH A ******* SMILE LIKE ITS ALL A LIE A JOKE WITH NO PUNCHLINE I REFUSE TO BE THE RAG DOLL IN A FIGHT BETWEEN MY OLD IDOLS THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS PICKING SIDES MAMA THROW OUT THE GUN YOU'RE NOT SURE HOW UGLY HE'LL BECOME DAD DON'T ALWAYS KEEP SILENT YOU'LL BREAK ONE DAY UNDER ALL THE WEIGHT I'LL BE OKAY DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME BUT PLEASE DON'T PRETEND ALL OF THIS IS NOT BURNING YOU CAN'T TELL ME ABOUT THE LAWYERS AND THEN ACT LIKE YOU NEVER SAID A WORD I DON'T WANT YOU TO SAY YOU'RE MOVING TO ANOTHER PLACE BUT NOT LOOK AT ME FOR FOUR DAYS MARRIAGE WAS SUPPOSE TO BE SACRED THAT'S AT LEAST WHAT YOU TOLD ME THE DAY MY SISTER ELOPED WITH HER BOYFRIEND SAVE YOURSELF FOR THE RIGHT MAN WAS EVERYTHING YOU REPEATED FOR EIGHT DAYS AFTER I ENTERED MY FIRST RELATIONSHIP BUT NOW THE WEDDING CHINA IS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND SOMEONES CLOTHES REST IN ANOTHER CLOSET I'M BEING LEFT BEHIND IN THE ASHES AND RUBBLE OF MY CHILDHOOD LIFE THERE'S NOTHING THAT I CAN DO TO STOP IT YOU TWO WILL NO LONGER BE ONE BUT I WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR DAUGHTER MAYBE IN THE FUTURE I'LL UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU MEAN WHEN YOU SAY YOU'RE BOTH MARTYRS