happy thanksgiving Christopher

Today I wanted to go see you
But to be honest I'm terrified of graveyards
So instead I look at pictures
And newspaper clippings
And obituaries
Everything and the only things this town remembers you by
I think everyone's lying
About how good of friends you were
And how close you were
And how much they miss you
I'm cynical
But I ******* miss you so much
I missed our friendship since it ended
I'm so sorry it ended
I'm so sorry you ended

I'm cleaning my bedroom and I found the outfit I wore the last time I saw you folded up on top of my couch. It still smells like the hospital. I can still see my hands in it covering my face as my jaw was dropped and the tears were fighting to stay in my eyes. I didn't want to cry in front of your parents. Or you. But then again you were going to be okay. I'm so sorry the doctors were wrong. And I hope you met my dad up there and I hope you met the other kids from our town who went.
happy thanksgiving Chris, I am thankful for knowing someone as happy and positive and good hearted as you were.