I'm alone, in a dark room, playing my game
I don't need to say how long I can hold on
If i even want to try,
Now I'm afraid, yeah,,, Staying awake
In back of my mind she stays, every dream,
everytime she twists them every which way
First i'm staring at an open grave,
in the middle of cemetary, in the middle of the night.
the bottom of the grave becomes a playground,
I cean see all of the kids, watch as they play
Oblivious to me, a dream within a dream.
Now she heralded by the growing winds of a storm
Just a hint of her favorite fragrance plays with me,
empty gutted feeling, makes me want to wake up
I don't pinch myself, or slap my face because I know
When I go to sleep she comes,  Ink poured into water
Grows and spreads all around, tell theres only grey everywhere
Time again to relive the loss, for the millionth time
It isn't as if she screams, or says hurtful things to me
She looks down on me, and the eyes tell me everything
I'm a decent man, half addict, then equal halves of that...
half unmotivated, half useless waste of space