torture at night sickness during day thoughts of leaving keep going through my head my head keeps pounding feeling nothing but shame never thinking can life ever cange a life of misery with no place to go i hide my feelings to hide my shame never talking drives me insane my thoughts won't leave me i keep them retained should i pick up and use or should i run and hide i go in circles to pace the floor these everasting feelings i need to pour these feelings of SHAME i need no more