sometimes i drink tea as a substitute for your hugs almost desperately sipping, wishing, hoping, dreaming of you (holding onto my ceramic cup so delicate)
sometimes loneliness creeps in like a stealth burglar when you realize what it is you freeze, suddenly too aware of yourself but pretending it doesn't exist to cushion yourself from these ugly emotions who, like old fake friends whom i try to alienate, i hide from, trying to mask myself by emulating everything i love
in the hopes of becoming something beautiful, something you might love. (pour myself another cup, dream on)