For as far as I can remember I've been going thru so much hurt, so much pain... That only a night filled with a soaked pillow from which my eyes filled with tears that flowed dwn the cheeks of a woman who has a inner demon that's ready to unleash and punish all whom have caused her pain.. Ppl tell me things but yet their actions don't compare.. I look at them with anger but keep a silent tongue, cause if they knew the words I wanted to say.. they wouldn't be able to handle the raft of my rage.. I've been hurt in so many ways that the soft spoken person, caring person that I once was is now gone and sleeping within me that I dnt knw what or how I can awaken her.. maybe I need that one person to come and make her magically appear, or maybe it's gonna take some deep meditation on my own to bring her forth. But I'm afraid that this person I've become is holding my inner beauty hostage and is not willing to allow her to come forth ever again. I've been waiting for so long to be loved that it has now just become a laughing matter that my evil side just smirk and grin upon saying.. **** love it'll never come so just let it be.. I still have moments when the beauty inside me voices out but is still trapped to where she can't come out. So she sleeps now within me while the other person lingers on.. Who has the heart or the strength to awaken my sleeping beauty.. for I have grown weak and can no longer fight.. the other person I have become!