I wanted to do everything
with you so I could pretend that
I hadn't already

I thought
it would fix me
but that's not how things work

I was still sad when
you touched me
Probably because
I didn't even feel it
and
when you told me
that you loved me
I heard your voice
crack
it's 3a.m. now and
I keep saying to myself
this is just how things work