my parents warned me about the drugs
in the street
but never the ones with
blue eyes and a heartbeat
i take another pill
and admit to myself
that i will never be busy enough
to not miss you
you kissed me like you meant it
but i tell myself that my heart didn't
shatter onto brick stone walls
because it is easier to forget you
than to risk falling apart
if this time is no different from the last
i tell myself to just drown you out
in blood red wine and
forget about the fact that nothing
tastes the same and my eyes will never
shine as bright as when you told me
you loved me
when it was just me and you on the bench
by the lake