I guess I'm dying cause all my friends and family are crying but at the same time I'm happy idk why but its good someone other then me is beginning to cry I'm sorry i told you all these lies this is all i can say on my death bed i haven't said enough but idc anymore cause I'm alive right now and i don't give a **** what people are thinking or saying because I'm finally at peace with my self and i don't have any more mental anger ik now things in the past weren't my fault I'm sorry i treated you like **** I'm sorry i couldn't cope with myself and I'm mainly sorry i hurt you i can probably name a hundred people i have hurt physically and verbally and mentally I'm sorry i just hate myself not you and if your reading this i hope you know I'm getting my own consequents