most of the times
i feel like i'm forever
going to want to off myself
every day i think about it
i've almost gone too far

some days i don't care if i do
i should be scared of that
but i'm not

i'm never happy with myself
or the the way i look

i have my good days
but they happen less than the bad

i don't really know
what i'm trying to get at
i guess it's just
god please pick up
i harbor the pain most days
but the days i don't
be by my side
and don't let me drown