trying to capture the perfect words
to make you know
and believe
how i truly feel
is difficult
because i really don't know
myself

how can one person
complicate the mind of another
just by being?

why is it, with everything else
i am strong,
secure,
sure of myself
but when it comes to you
i am a blubbering idiot?

i wonder
will there ever be a you i am comfortable with?
is there a you out there that will allow me to be me
without ever trying?

i want my white horse
where's my knight
do i have to wait until the next lifetime
have i missed my chance for real passion
love
happiness
peace
should i give up
?

i am suffocating daily
as i feel the days pass
and the clock spin

this cannot be my destiny
this cannot be fate

please, show yourself to me.