It's been two years
But still the thoughts run through my mind
Never the whole thing
But bits and pieces
Here and there.

I've repressed the memory of you.
The feel of you against me.
The way you talked to me.
The sound of your voice.
The things we talked about.

I push away from the thoughts
Of what happened that night.
I can see clearly what happened in the end.
But everything from the beginning is gone.
I've pushed you out
From the darkest recesses of my mind.

I don't want to remember
How you treated me.
What you tried to force me to do.
You coaxing didn't work
So you tried being obvious.
That didn't work either.
Finally you tried by force.
By the mercy of my guardian angel
I was stronger than you and pushed you away.

Not only have I repressed
The memory of you
And all that happened that night,
I no longer remember your name.
I can't even recall the way you look.
I thank my angel every night
For watching over me
And slowly drawing you
Completely from my mind