I only have one life
And so far it's not so great
I gave my life to my family
I live for them not me

And the only thing that makes me Happy
Scares the people around me
Everything that makes me happy
People say is bad
But my knife and my pills are the only things I have ever had

It feels so amazing when I put the knife to my skin
To touch all the scars
To lose myself in the pills
To have the option to end it all

But that makes me crazy
And makes you  scarred
But I'm tired of trying to please you
I'm tired of giving up my happiness for you
I'm sorry if this scares you
But this is what I have to do
I want to be happy
Even if I lose you