Don't pretend your sorry to make yourself feel better for the sins you created on the premise that you are who you are and you can't change because everyone can change you just refuse to,  accept one day you'll realise its all your fault and you could of done something about it but you just make out like you have a demon inside and you like to communicate with the devil because of your past stop making excuses for yourself, accept what you've done, because I did a long time ago I just can't watch you professionally destroy yourself anymore