I wanted to yell out my feelings for you, get up on stage and profess my eternal love for the soul your body hosts. But she would always be around you, guarding you from people who only wanted to love you right.
So I found other ways to be with you.
In the silence I found ways to love you louder than I ever thought was possible.
The little smiles on my face when you said something I thought was funny.
The longing glances at your profile when you weren't looking, memorizing all of you in the corners of my head.
Furtive eye contacts to remember what it felt like to drown in you.
The one hug a night I get to give you when I see you under the pretence it is what I do to everyone. I do it to everyone because I want to do it to you, not the other way around.
Writing letters after letters after letters I will never send you.
I loved you quietly, so quietly, you never noticed.