The river asked for a kiss I wanted to see if I could fly The knife fell in love with my skin My heart wants to stop so I'll die
The pills made me feel so good The liquor made glad The smokes make my heart dance I can't remember where I'm at
Woke up with some guy I'd never even met He said he loved me I had been the best one yet
This is not the life Not the life I dreamed I am so dissapointed I am ashamed of me
Look at who i am The monster I've become Letting my life go I want another one I can't let go Can't slip thru the gates Doesn't matter if I feel like giving up my place Here I will stay Fighting till my day comes that the Lord takes my soul I wanna look nice When such a day comes
The fire burned in all the right ways The rope bruised my throat The bridge is over a river of concrete Wonder if I can float
Left a note by my mothers bedside Clear for her to see By the time she reads it Angels will have taken me
I close my eyes Count to three The gun is to my forehead Trigger finger ready My brother runs in Before I pull Instead of yelling He pulls me close
"I love you" he says Again and Again "You can't leave me,not yet"
I look around And I smile My goodbye letters on the ground I've got no more tears to shed I'll be ok in the end
Please see that ending your hurts others as well as yourself.PLEASE KNOW THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO CARE!! You may not find them easily, but there are some out there. I love you all in a sense...and rememberize this: LIFE IS TWISTED, THATS EHAT MAKES IT SO BEAUTIFUL.