I refuse to succumb to this again, and spend
weeks and months in hopeless misery
and excited adrenaline- I refuse to topple
heels over head, obsessive and unfulfilled,
this is unacceptable, I cannot, I will not
feel like this again, help me- it must not be real
I will deny and refuse this time-
I recognize the signs, and I can stop myself,
I have to be able to stop myself,
I will end this now.