sad, again
but a calm sad
accepting
viable
livable

I'm scared to start liking you
things never really work out in my favor
when I most want them to
I don't want you to be one of those things

you are a person and you are so lovely
I am a person and I am so vulnerable

I don't want to kiss you or hold your hand
I don't want to know that you're better off without me

all I want is for you to sit across from me
all I want to do is talk with you
until night and day become one

we can resume our different lives
in sepearte ways
thereafter

indifferent, again
but an attentive indifference
subtle
perpetual
liking you in spite of fear