Last night I couldn't sleep
I heard soft whimpers right next to me
I shut my eyes tightly
And I heard her saying

"Did I failed?"
"Did I failed as a mom?"
My heart shattered into million pieces
Hearing every single word she said

How am I supposed to continue breathing
How am I supposed to be happy
When my presence is nothing but a problem
To the one who brought me into this world?

I wiped my tears
And slept throughout the guilt
Knowing I could never repay
Whatever she did

But mom, I'm suffering
And I don't know how to tell you
These thoughts has been eating me up lately
And I think I'm dying soon

Mom, I want you to know
You're not the one who failed
It's me-
I'm the one whom had created this hell
And you don't deserve anything like this

For your happiness I'd do anything
Even if it cost my life
And I swear I'd die for you
Because you've risked your life for me

Mom I love you
More than any woman in this world
I hope you'd forgive me
Before I'm gone from this world

- R