And with all the pain that plagues me
All the unfortunate events I've endured
The knives in the back
and those that slide across my body more
With memories filled with heartache
and a mind filled with rage
my life has been a horror novel
I'm afraid to turn the page
With all these things that haunt me
including mistakes that I've made
Nights I've spent alone
or haven't left my bed for days
Made myself sick
but couldn't clean up the mess
So much in the head
but empty in the chest
close my eyes and wish
but nothing ever comes true
open my eyes and see
that no one ever follows through
cried for help
to have the door slammed in my face
offer up my affection
to just be turned away
the only words I hear from others
are lies they wished I'd tell myself
No one wants to deal
with a girl who needs help
Some nights I scream
but every night I cry
Here I stand still
No one appreciates I'm alive