we're walking along the shore
you're a few steps ahead of me
the waves settle as you pass them by
i hope you don't notice that
i'm blinking twice as much as usual
just gotta prove to myself that this is real
it isn't real
it's gotta be real
you turn around & smile
why'd you have to smile
my hands clench
you've gotta stop that
you've gotta stop all the
push & pull
i dig my feet in the sand
i'm here
i'm right here
& i've never wanted to be
anywhere else
you walk toward the ocean
that's the **** i'm talking about
the same old ****
i'm always talking about
waves crash on your feet
you're constantly running
you're scared that maybe
just maybe
you want to be here too
my stomach drops*
i'm so *******
in love with you
you don't even flinch
****
i close my eyes
i want to try this again
i dig my feet deeper in the sand
i'm here
& i don't care when
the tide comes in or goes out
i will stay
i ******* want it to drown me
i can't stop feeling you
everywhere i go
& i swear
this yearning inside of me
is going to burn a hole
right through my chest
i feel you move closer
i'm tired of waiting for tomorrow
when exactly what i want
is standing in front of me today
everything goes silent
do you want to be here too?
i open my eyes
**it isn't real