I don't know
The difference between
Tired and depression

I don't know
The feeling of sweet awareness
Only the feeling
Of numb nostalgia


I don't know
Why my scars have faded
Yet I still remember
The cold pain of blade against pale sad skin

I don't know
Why I continue to scream in my dreams
Yet my nightmares have ceased

I don't know
Why I can never give a straight answer to why this hurts
I can only say

I don't know