if only,
I could let the words fly out like butterflies,
flying freely in the sky,
I lack the freedom to express myself inside,
I lack the trust and understanding in you,
the understanding that your with me not because I care for you,
but because you love me for me.
you always tell  me you,
you love me for the truth I always speak,
you love me because I'm the other half that keeps life worth living,
the other half that makes you happy,
that makes a part of you feel joy and peace,
that makes you feel like he can be who he wants to be when I'm around him.
if only I could see what you see,
if only I could feel free,
I'm scared you see,
like a baby,
I don't know what step to take first,
I'm scared I won't make you happy enough,
I don't know how to believe in myself,
I don't know where to start,
you say it takes time,
to get over the scars that once used to control your life,
the battle of trying to survive the abuse that caused you pain inside,
you say you're here for me,
I'm scared to see what you see in me,
I'm scared you'll leave,
like the rest did,
if only I could see what you see,
just maybe,
maybe it will change my perception of things,
if only.