when i was 4 i lost my dog
when i was 5 my favorite blanket ripped
when i was 6 my favorite toy broke
my mom told me over and over again that it would be okay
she told me there was good and bad in every situation
including this one
on my 7th birthday my mom surprised me
my favorite toy and blanket were fixed
she told me that if you care about something
fix it
now i sit in my room
i think about the difference between losing you
and you finding someone else
i search my mind looking for the answers
the same way i search down the streets
trying to catch sight of you
i feel like a lost dog
the one that wouldn't be lost if someone would have cared
that someone being you
misery towers of me
the same way you did
when you told me you'd protect me forever
and keep me safe when i was scared in the dark
then i realized
i was locked in my room
the same way i was locked in by the fears of my childhood
only this time
I'm the puppy
you left me lost
just like the puppy when i was 4
this time
you're the blanket
and you're ripped
leaving me unprotected
just like the blanket when i was 5
its my 17th birthday now
and here i am waiting
waiting for everything to be fixed
just like my 7th birthday
only this time
i was left broken
just like the broken toy when i was 6
because you didn't care enough to fix me