I can't risk it I won't let myself Put myself through all that **** again I won't.
What?
You don't believe me?
...
It's how I look at you, isn't it. The hope.
I didn't think it would show so plainly on my face. Never wanted it to.
I suppose now that is has you expect me to explain myself I refuse.
well, maybe just a little.
I parallel myself to the man who drowns on a boat in a freshwater lake Surrounded by love And somehow distanced from it.
I have grown to slap the hand that reaches for the water And that hand has learned to remain hidden.
I am a lost soul who speaks in metaphors because the truth would hurt you and God knows I don't want that Playing with words, toying with a melody It keeps me sane.
So if a glance slipped out from within I apologize