Today is just another day
Another day to work
Another day to walk
Another day to try and continue breathing

I put on a smile
Yet I can't seem to find inspiration
A reason I need to get out of bed
A reason I need to talk at all

If I'm silent, people continue on
And I am pushed further into my night
The darkness in my head spreading like a disease
And one day I'll be infected

This disease isn't simple and has no cure
It is embedded in the strands of my brain
Trying to take over an *****
That has almost given up anyway

One day, you will talk to me and get a blank stare
And I won't have the passion, the sense
To push myself to say anything

This wasn't how it used to be
I've always had social anxiety
And talking never was my strong suit
But at least I tried

Yet the more I tried to be myself,
The more people pushed me away
Strangers, my friends, my family
They all seem to be using me as target practice
Finding the closest object to them that's different and executing it from existence

Well......fine
It probably wouldn't matter anyway right?
I mean, who cares about this nerd that stands before you?
......No one

And then, after the infection almost took over my body
I found her
The girl who made me smile
Made me want to live

She started talking to me
Saying I was beautiful, pretty, gorgeous
She made me feel something brighter
And for a moment I thought I'd be saved

But I was too close to the edge
And someone, from school, gave me the final push
And drove me over

The infection has spread
And my body is a limp puppet
No longer having a mind of its own
No will to live

She misses me
When I used to be brighter happier
But I no longer talk, or breathe
I'm forever gone and nobody cares.