The slamming of the door sliced into my soul with the sharpest blade.
The thump of the car door cracked my brain in two.
The crunch of tires on gravel brought out a waterfall of tears.
Feeling the silence slowly settle in was the final straw of my sanity going up in flames.
The fight that happened was the worst one yet.
Screaming out obscenities and tossing around accusations like there was no tomorrow.
But all that stilled when the back of your hand connected with the soft flesh of my cheek.
All was silent then as we looked at each other with fresh eyes.
I saw a man being driven insane with anger and frustration, while you saw a woman trying to keep the tears from her eyes so you wouldn't see her let her guard down.
The angry words being thrown around are nothing but memories now as you walk to the room and grab your things.
I call to you but you keep going.
Slamming the front door lets the floodgates in my heart, mind and soul open and release all their pain onto my face.
Somehow I sob silently...for a while.
Escalating,my sobs become wails as I frantically grab at my hair in an attempt to process what has happened.
Nothing makes sense!
You're not holding me and telling me to calm down.
You aren't running down the hall to find my phone so I can call my mother.
You aren't here.
I fly to the front door and yank it open only to find nothing there.
Running down the driveway I see your taillights at the end of the street.
I run so fast my feet melt into the pavement.
I reach your truck and open the driver side door.
You're sitting with your head in your hands, sobbing so hard you can barely breath.
I try to pull you to me but you shove me off.
Standing out in the dark I realize that we're both crazy.
I begin to laugh and laugh and I can't stop.
I know I must be truly insane to be laughing at a time like this but I can't stop.
Suddenly I feel something running down my cheeks and sometime between starting to laugh and realizing I was crazy I had started crying.
You finally look up as I sink to the ground.
Hyperventilating, sobbing uncontrollably and thinking that I must be the worst person in the world.
You climb out of the trunk, sink down in front of me and grab my hands in yours.
Looking into your eyes brings me to a halt.
Your eyes always pull me out of whatever I'm doing.
When you look at me I swear I can see your deepest thoughts and desires.
You gently squeeze my hands and say that you're sorry.
Your eyes start misting and I can feel myself doing the same.
I wrap my arms around you and feel myself giving into my body.
I need you and I want you forever.
I pull back, look into your eyes and say I love you.
I say it from within the deepest, darkest parts of me and I cannot possibly imagine anyone else that I would say this to so genuinely.
You say I love you too and then you kiss me.
So gently it feels as though you're afraid to hurt me but then I deepen the kiss and I feel all the bad things lift away for the moment.
It is just you and me with our crazy kind of love.
A love that is one of a kind.