Forever tormented
Never left alone
How can I escape this pain?
And begin to make my own

Sudden attacks of panic
Fruitless attempts to escape
Nothing can stop this battle
This war that leads my fate

Why am I not stronger?
Where is the strength he gave?
Alone in this painful hour
Pointless to be saved

Drifting even farther
Losing all I love
Losing that connection
That I had with Him above

Sinking slowly deeper
Darkness fills my mind
Lightless figures follow
Devouring what they find

I grasp at times of Joy
Attempt to keep it near
But it slips away so quickly
And I’m filled again with fear

When will I be free of it?
When will this darkness leaves?
I’m so tired of this pain
That can change what I believe

Breath does not come easy
Rarely do I sleep
Ghosts that always haunt me
Until I start to weep

Tears that never end
Screams that have no sound
All hidden deep inside me
Fighting to be found

I've lost all motivation
I do not care to eat
My body’s weak and weary
And my words are never neat

But somehow I will make it
Somehow I will survive
Cause though it doesn't seem it
I control my life.