i think i am afraid of missing someone forever. i seem to think that once i say goodbye, even on good terms, i will never see any of them again and that terrifies me because i don't want to make new friends if that means i have to lose my old ones. (i'm afraid to say goodbye to you, ever because i am ******* terrified i'll always miss you)
**** i know it's dumb and naive and i am young and maybe i'll read this one day and hate myself for how ridiculously caught up in feelings i was, but i am ******* CAUGHT IN FEELINGS ****