I hate how I love you
I hate how I have no choice in the matter
I hate how you still hold a special place in my heart

I hate how I felt depression for the first time in my life after losing you
I hate how I could let you affect me so profoundly

I hate how not a day has passed since you left that I haven’t thought about you at least a little
I hate how I have to live with you occupying this space in my head

I hate that you’ll always be in someone else’s arms
I hate that I don’t want you in mine

I hate that I can’t just turn off the memories
I hate that I can’t turn off you