I’m exhausted from all the pressure
Why even bother if I’ll never succeed
I’ve begun to realize that I’ll never
Be able to quench the world’s selfish greed
All the past negativity used to be my motivator
But lately it’s become more of an anchor

My best is never enough, it’s quite onerous
Even taking a breath seems nodulous

If I could change one thing
I’d have listened to the adults
And I would now believe
To hate growing old

I’d go back to a happier time
Call it happy if you may

I’d go back to a life of deception
Before I realized the lack of affection
A time before life’s lies were clear
Before I hated the silhouette of the mirror

I’d go back to my days of innocence
Where there wasn’t a care to be felt
I’d ignore the hate of others
And undo the acknowledgment of individuals
I would hate myself less
And I wouldn’t be afraid to be heard

I’d teach my younger self the world is cruel
And I’d realize nothing lasts forever
I’d had rid myself of nights filled will ghouls
And today would be easier had I discovered

Life gets better, as people always quoted
But one thing was never noted
Things get better, but they can also get worse
Nothing lasts forever is a statement obverse

But I do not have the soul power
To change what can’t be undone
So I’ll live with the memories
To learn from my mistakes,
And try to better myself
And my future