Until your birthday
January kept it's cold claws in Texas until May
Sometimes I wonder if it's you
Who makes it shine or makes it gray
I wonder if those days you are missing us too
Cold holds your shoulders
I hope not
I wonder
If the cold felt refreshing and you thought I'd like it too
You were one for winter
Who hated the heat
And saw beauty
I didn't
In colorless December
Maybe it should have been my birthday in June
And you'd have November
But you were too warm
Don't worry I will always remember
Summer nights with you
Like yesterday
When we first met that May
It was five years past then you left one day
I wrote you
With guilt on my fingers
Like Poe
Dread pulled me from my bed
I didn't know you were leaving
I'd have hugged you longer
Told you twice I loved you
Believed in you
Was proud of you
At least you could read my letters then
Now it's June and there's no sign of you
Just your birth day sitting clouded in the future
I wonder
How that day will feel
Not so lost like January
Maybe isolating like a frozen TV dinner meal
5 months passed since your passing
Life has never felt so long
After witnessing how brief it can be
The days were slow
And January still has it's breeze in me