I noticed recently that when the world wants to spin me off into orbit my default is digging in and going to my core.

Auto, defiant and laser fixed.
A small place that I call stiller.
Like a
******.
My heart forgets      
To beat.   Stone blind.
Still,stiller,stillest.
Stiller still as   I prep for the ****.
Assassination of fears icewater like blood.
Refusal of all negative flow.
Survive.
Survive.
Survive.