Shouldn't have worn that ****** blue dress -
I was asking for it.
and no,
I don't mean it in that way.

I was asking for someone to see me
the way I want people to see me;
but what a flawed idea that was.
How can I ask that of others
when I do not even know
who I am?

I shouldn't have stayed outside until 3 a.m. -
I was asking for it.

I practically begged for someone to save me,
"show me your armor,
look at me,
such a damsel in distress,
reading isn't a good escape,
so won't you rescue me,
baby?"

And This Is What I Got:

your eyes
(I couldn't look away)
your smile
(still staring)
your touch
(I began to doze off)


This Is What I Did Not Get:
your number
(the first sign)
your love
(I am such a fool)

This Is What I Saw:
the prettier version of me
+
you,
in a picture,
all smiles,
two
days
later.

This Is What I Learned:
do not wear your favorite dress
outside while reading a book
in the early hours of the morning
unless you want to learn
the hard way
that sometimes,
being caught
hurts worse
than falling.