but i think that i'm as addicted to you as you are to Marlboro's
quitting you cold turkey was a ******* mistake i'm left with these cravings
that make my veins itch and my body feels like it's full of cement
i cant help but think of you at night when only white noise lies with me when it used to be you with your arms wrapped around me
but when i wake up you are the first thing i think of and you aren't there anymore even though i chose to leave you since i thought you were toxic like the tar that coats your lungs but now im struggling to breathe easily anyway
it doesnt make sense to be full of emptiness but i can somehow feel it in my chest and i cant even take a hit off of you because i am not the cigarette that gets to  touch your lips
and like quitting smoking everyone has said i'll be healthier without you but my mind is feeling so sick despite the smile painted on my face